Why I don't get my hair cut...!
So it's Psoriasis Awareness Week and I thought it was about time that I share my story with you. I've written and re-written, published and unpublished this post more times than I care to remember. I know Psoriasis is nothing that could have been prevented, and it is definitely nothing that can be cured, but I still feel utterly embarrassed and ashamed of it. So over the next few months, I'll be sharing some of my psoriasis 'journey' with you. I'm not even sure it can be called a 'journey' as I can't see an end but we'll go with it for now...
What do you think when you hear the word 'psoriasis'? To me, I think other people see it as a dirty disease that looks horrible and ugly, which is why I've always kept it quiet.
You know all those times I wore jeans and long sleeves in the middle of a heatwave...?
Or those nights out where I bailed at the last minute...?
Or those holidays we've had where I've stayed indoors rather than come swimming...?
Or how excited I am to be a bridesmaid but secretly dreading being put in a dress or have someone do my hair...?
Or how I hide my nails at every opportunity...?
Or why I've not had a haircut for over a year because I can't bring myself to go to a salon...?
Or why I am so unbelievably exhausted every single day...?
I could go on...
On their own, the problems seem so ridiculous. Ok, so I can only wear certain shoes and I can’t get my dead ends chopped off - no big deal - but together these issues consume me. Maybe I’m being dramatic but this chronic condition is never far from my mind, no matter where I am or what I'm doing. It has stolen my confidence and replaced it with ugly skin, nails and hair. On a rare, good day I can ignore it and not let psoriasis stop me from doing the things I love, but it's just not that easy most of the time.
And just like whenever someone has some kind of illness or condition, everyone suddenly becomes an expert in the treatment of it. No, it's not eczema. Yes, I've tried every cream going. Yes, I have seen a dermatologist and no, it's not contagious. One of the hardest things about this condition is lack of awareness. People just don't know enough about psoriasis to be able to understand what on earth I'm going on about when they kindly point out my sore arms or peeling nails, so if this first psoriasis post gets you to do anything tonight, then find out some info on psoriasis and treatments from the Psoriasis Association.
And, as always, feel free to ask any questions - I'm always happy to explain things a little more!